So let's talk unis and future plans. These few months in lockdown has me thinking a lot more about my future, what it includes but mainly what I am doing in Uni and where I am going. This period of corona has seriously thrown me off track in terms of my uni plans. For my whole life, my plan was to go to USA for uni, specifically New York since NYU has always been my dream uni. The only problem is that I have only had one chance to do my SATs and I didn’t get a good enough score to get into any university I want to go to which means I have to re-sit them but I don’t know when my school will open again for me to re-sit them and so far the universities I am looking at haven’t canceled SAT’s entrance requirements. Do you see my dilemma? There is also the issue of police brutality and how different races get treated in that country; with the recent treatment to George Floyd and how he was treated by the police which made him pass away I don’t really know if I can live in a place that has law enforcers like that. It shocked me as well as disgusted me to see how that could even happen and it turned me off a bit about the country. I know that every state there is different but police brutality is a nationwide problem there and, to be honest, it scares me about living there because I don’t know how safe I can be when law enforcers treat people like that. However, when someone asks me where do I see myself in 5 years I always imagine my self being in the Northern states of USA, mainly New York. I just can’t imagine me being happy going to a university in any country apart from USA. But with all this I have started to consider London as well and some other Unis in different countries depending on the courses I want to do but I can't imagine my life there. This is a big problem for me. Just my future in general, like does it make sense for me to take a GAP year like I want to because how much would actually be available for me to do after everything that is happening and how long is all this going to last. This uncertainty kind of scares me a little bit and it is just overwhelming me a bit.
I have a few options for what I want to do at University.
- criminal law
- psychology with either a conversation year to law after that or further study to become a clinical psychologist
- interior design
They are very different options and I am very confused as to which one is the right option for me since all of them interest me equally. My main goal in life is to build a platform where I can help people and that is what this blog is starting to do for me and in uni I want to do something that can help me do that but I just don’t know which out of those three is the best way for me to do so with still enjoying what I do. My question is how do people do this? How do people know from a young age what they want to do in life and even not from a young age but at my age how to people figure this shit out because I sure can’t and it is starting to stress me out a little bit. I know a lot of other people will be in the same boat as me but it is just very scary how I have to write my personal statement in a month's time and by the end of the year have applied to universities. This all just seems a bit crazy to me and I am not too sure that I am okay with growing up this quick, I want to grow up and become an adult (strange to hear I know but I love the idea of being independent and in control of my life) but I just want to get a peek into the future so I can see how I end up and can see that everything is going to be okay. This has gone way off-topic.
I am planning a gap year and I have kinda planned it all out already but I just don’t know if it makes sense doing. I will never get a time where I can take a year off just to do this I want to do again in my life because after I graduate university I have to get into work but then would it make sense doing a differed entry as I will then not be graduating the same year as my age group and if I go to USA then it is an even longer process. I have watched a countless number of uni videos - how to choose the right uni, how to organize uni lists, how to create a portfolio for interior design, hunters of day in the life for the courses and Universities I want to apply to - it is insane and pretty much the only thing I use YouTube for currently. The scariest thing is that I have to choose son because if I want to go into I.D. then I have to start working on my portfolio and if I want to go into law I have to start finding internships and people I can shadow to see how it works and whether I want to be a barrister or a solicitor so its a slight bit of a crazy time for me with this. This will defiantly be an ongoing blog theme that I am going to post as I will be trying out a lot of different methods of how I can decide and shortlisting. If you have any advice please feel free to leave a comment or message me on Instagram, it will honestly be appreciated a lot. I hope if you are going through this as well that you feel that you aren’t alone because I know a lot of people who are feeling the same way right now and with everything happening around the world it is just generally a bit of a crazy time right now so it is Olay to feel a little overwhelmed right now.
Till the next post my lovelies x