Before I write this I want to say that I hope everyone got what they were hoping for; I am sure everyone has done absolutely fab and how much ever work you put in was portrayed through your results.
The style I am going to be writing this is slightly different from my normal posts; I will be writing it as time goes on as if it was a diary.
So it’s currently the day before I am supposed to be getting my results. Tomorrow is the day I have been waiting for and dreading since last year when I got my mandarin results. I remember how stressed I was for just getting the results for one subject. I woke up about 6 am (Dubai time but the results were coming out around 7 am England time so that was about 10 am for me) and I couldn't go to sleep that was for one subject which compared to what I have done this year to me wasn’t that important. So sitting here today knowing that results are in about 14 hours, I am petrified. I now as I am writing this that I know I am not the only one so scared and that everyone is in the same boat. One thing I do hate is that people saying that ‘you will do great, you will definitely be getting a 9 in that subject’; like saying that just freaks me out even more and it just doesn’t help. I also do understand that there isn’t anything we can do about these grades and that they are written I stone but it is still very petrifying. I am honestly so scared because for one reason I am on a conditional exceptance for my new school so that means I need certain grades to get in. An other reason is that I had put in so much effort into these grades and I tried so hard in every subject that I have certain expectation for myself for these grades I want and I don’t want anything below a 7 (which is equal to an A, so that might just show you how much work I put into these exams). The other reason is that these exams are graded with the whole country which means there is no way of truly predicting what you got and you can only assume by reading the twitter hashtags after the exams. I think that was definitely the best part of the actual exams was the memes that we got out of it; that’s one great thing about our year group is that the memes that we can make are so brilliant. I just can’t explain how I am feeling apart from scared. But it is also so hard to understand the fact that tomorrow is the day; as a student since the day you start senior school you prepare and wait for the day you sit your GCSE exams and the day you find out your results. The fact that that day is tomorrow and I am going to be a sixth former in a few weeks time is mind-blowing to me. There are also small facts like what do I when I find out my results and want to get stuff remarked and how close I was to my grade boundaries am I that I dont understand how to do because I am moving school so how does it work, but those are things that will happen tomorrow. There is part of me that can’t wait for tomorrow to come because I know there is so much that I am looking forward to that is only going to happen after I get these results but then there is the rest of me that wants nothing more than to just go back in time where I didn’t even have to think about results and exams. When I start sixth form in September I have to start properly thinking about universities and start preparing for SATs and its just incomprehensible to me how all this stuff has come so quickly. soon I will be sitting here preparing to find out what my A-Level results are. As you guys could already tell my head is all of the place right now but its starting to feel so real and so quick. The past few months since I finished my exams I had this date in the back of my head but it was always so long away but before I knew it the 10-day countdown started and now its the hourly countdown since is less than a day away. When it was still months away a part of me didn’t believe that this was real and going to happen but now that its tomorrow its shocking to me. I still feel like I haven’t actually sat for my GCSEs and all this never happened and that I am still going into year 11 but that’s not the case. I guess that’s what’s scarier to me that all this is so real and that I am growing up. I don’t think I would be saying what I got because it could make someone feel bad that I reading this because everyone has different expectations of themselves and everyone's learning levels are different so the last thing I want to do is make anyone feel bad about their grades. Obviously, I am writing this the day before so God knows if I will even be happy with my grades. Well, all I can hope is that I get the grades I want and that the grades I do get show the amount of work I put into these exams.
So it's about 7 mins till results and I am so bloody scared omg I can’t even describe this feeling. I woke up at about 6;40 am which isn’t that bad and basically watched Queer Eye to calm my nerves but ya it hasn’t worked that well. Crap why do we have to go through this, it is so bloody scary. There is not much else to write apart from the fact that I am shitting myself.
So it has been an hour since I got my results and none of this feels real at all. I am really happy with my grades and its such aa relief to know that the amount of work I put into these exams has been shown. It's still so crazy to me to think that I have finished my GCSEs and now am a Sixth Former, like I’m sorry what? This is insane but in a good way and I am so freaking happy with all this. All I can say is that all this is insane but its also such a good relief cause this means that I have the capability to achieve my grades. To put into perspective of how hard I worked - last year at the end of year 10 I got a 3 in my physics (which is a fail) and and I worked to so hard in year 11 to improve my grade that I came out with a 7 right now (which is an equivalent to an A). That’s crazy but that is just showing that hard work really does pay off. I hope whoever is reading this is happy with their grades and got what they were hoping for. I know grades don’t define you or anything but these grades were so important to me (as all grades are to me) and the fact that I have don’t well and achieved above and beyond my goals is the best feeling in the world and I really truly hope that everyone reading this is pleased with their results, only you know ho hard you worked for these or any exams so only you can judge whether your grade was right one for you. If you are reading this while waiting for any exam results just remember every time will be okay and everything will work out, the universe has crazy ways of putting you on your right paths so try not to stress too much. I know coming from me its kind of hypocritical but everything will be okay, if I can get from a fail to an A in my physics so can all of you.
Now the next step is Sixth Form, this comes with its own set of challenges and fears to me but its something we have to get through and we will get through. Sorry if this out was kind off all over the place but ya this was my experience of results day and leading up to results day.
Till my next post my lovelies x