Dear Diana, 

The moment I read that you have left us it broke my heart. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to read and I don’t think I will ever truly be able believe you are actually gone. You left us on the 7th of Feb this year and it was the hardest goodbye I have ever had to say, especially because I never got a proper goodbye with you. I have this hope in my heart that I will go home next month and you will be there to greet me at the door like you have been doing for the past 6 years that I have been away, but I know that won’t happen; in that moment it will hit me the hardest because that’s the moment I will fully realise you aren’t here with us anymore. 

You were always there for me no matter what, for the 13 years you were with us, and you were the best thing to ever come home to. Your big smile would make my day, whether you were lying on your sofa or running around the garden chasing the football, you would always have the biggest smile I have ever seen. Not being able to see that in person anymore breaks my heart. You were the best dog anyone could have asked for, we always joked that you were more human than you were a dog and this was proven correct when you ignored Veerji the first time he came back from boarding school, or when you would sit on our chairs after we got up from the table. Because you were mad at him. You were truly the princess of the family but we wouldn’t have had it any other way. 

You would always know when I was sad or stressed and would follow me into my room on those days and stay with me till I felt better. You did this on my last day at home in the Christmas holidays, it was almost like you knew you wouldn’t be here for the next time I came home. On that day I didn’t say goodbye and I wish I could go back and say a proper goodbye with you but I said 'see you later' instead and I will. One day I will join you up there and be able to see that massive smile of yours again and be able to chase you around the garden trying to get the rugby ball out of your mouth. 

This isn’t goodbye as much as it feels like it. This simply a see you later. I refuse to believe that you are gone that easily, you were and are the strongest dog I will ever know and no one could ever compare to you. You were truly my best friend. 

I miss you. 

I will love you always and forever baby, I hope you are having fun up there xxx